Not around much

The older man in the middle is my grandpa and my children's old papa. He was born in 1919, was a devoted husband for 54 years before he was widowed, a loving dad, brother, granpa, and great grandpa. He was a decorated war hero, and when I say decorated I mean decorated. He was loving, compassionte, and ruled with an iron fist. He lived through the depression, slavery, equal rights, and he lived to see a black man become president. Not too many people can say they have seen such change in their life. He was a special person in my life. My children loved him. I loved him. God loved him too and called him home Thursday morning. The 15th. The same day my baby turned 2.

You will never been forgetten, selfishly missed but never forgotten. I know right now he is tending to the roses. He always told me that my grandma would come to him in dreams and tell him how beautiful the gardens in Heaven are. She told him that he was in charge of the roses but they had not bloomed yet and when they did he will be called home. His roses have bloomed, they have to be the most beautiful and colorful roses I have ever seen because he would never accept anything less.

Here they are:

Book Challeneged reviewed

I have decided that to join a few book challenges. I am really excited to do them and I love to read so why not right. I thought about starting another blog devoted to my love of reading but I think I would be tackling too much. So I am just going to post about them on this blog instead. I am going to read more into the challenges I want to do 1st and see if it says anything in there about having to have a separate blog for this though. I would hate to not follow the rules.

Today is my day off work WOOHOO. The boys love when I am home and I love it too!
I am off to do my dishes and get a head start on my dinner for tonight. I will be back later to post what challenges I have decided to join and do all that linky stuff that I am really bad at and takes me hours to figure out. I may be asking for some help LOL ;)

speechless

That is me. I can not of anything to say...so until tomorrow. Have a good one.

Happy Belated Birthday!

My oldest son turned 6 years old yesterday. He was so excited about his birthday . He even thanked me! Haha. He came into this world at 5:42 PM 14 days early,after I was on bed rest for 15 days. He came after an induction that lasted 20 hours and ended up with an emergency C-section because his rate was dropping and not recovering fast enough. After he was born he spent 2 1/2 days in the NICU for a small hole in heart, that did repair on its own, and breathing issues. I will never forget the joy, love and the tears when I finally got to hold my baby boy with out wires all over and knowing that he was going to be fine. I also will never forget the fear that overcame me in that same moment. He was all mine and now my job was beginning.

The funny thing is 6 years later and those feelings still haven't left. I can still hold him on my lap and I am filled with joy and love. I have lost count over how many times I have shed tears and as he becomes older my fear gets worse. The world is a scary place sometimes.

Happy Birthday Buddy. Mommy and Daddy will always love you. We are so blessed to have you in our lives. We are very proud of the little boy you are and honored to call you or son. Your sense of humor, sensitivity, and caring nature are just a few of the wonderful qualities that you possess.

6 years ago today

6 years ago I got a call from my OB that my bed rest was ended, that in 2 hours I was to go for a non-stress test and then go straight to the hospital after. They were going to induce me, they were not 100% happy with my last non-stress test and thought that it was time to get baby out.

So this time 6 years ago I was FREAKING out. My husband was at work and in a meeting, my mom was out shopping with my 83 year old grandpa and I could get a hold of no one. My mom was going to drive to my appointment, due to the bed rest they also said I could not drive, but I wanted her to know that she better clear her calendar for the day because there was no way she was just to drop me off at the hospital to have a baby by myself. I mean you all that have kids know how it works. When you go to the hospital to have a baby it happens right away! I mean I was thinking since I was being induced it would happen in a matter of hours and I would be alone and my hubby would miss out 1st child being born.....WRONG...my baby's birthday is not even today! He was born 5:42 PM 1/3/03.....to be continued :)

Thursday 13

This my first attempt at a Thursday 13.

13 things I want to do in 2009. These are not resolutions, but things I want to do.

1. Read more books. I am thinking about doing a 2009 book challenge. I will decide by the end of the week.
2. Keep up with this blog. How am I doing so far ;)
3. Become a little more organized. Just a little bit. This is so needed but hard for me.
4. I want to find more time to work out. Once again not an easy task. Between working in the home and out of the home, doing laundry, and making time for hubby, there is a small sliver of time.
5. Make more time for hubby. If I told you the last time we went out together you would be shocked. Actually I could not even tell because I do not even remember. The boys are getting a bit older and I am more comfortable with leaving them for a bit.
6. I want to start date days with the boys. Either hubby and or I take one of them out so they have time alone with just mom and doing what they want.
7. Upload my pictures more often and share. I have a an awesome group of girls online that I share pics with but I want to do it more often. I have not yet decided what I want to share online.
8. Relax...Take life as it comes and don't sweat the small stuff. I normally am pretty good at this but there is always room for improvement.
9. Pre-plan my meals.
10. Smile and laugh a lot. I already do this too but I still want to do this in '09
11. Make sure my children know and feel loved. They already do I know that but I want them to always make sure they know they are loved beyond belief.
12. NO BABIES. 2009 is not they year I want to get pregnant. I have babies born in 2003,2005,2007....do you see a pattern here? If I can make it through the next few months than this will be an easy feat.
13. Give back. I have no plans for this and I need to think about it yet. We as a family are going to give back. I have no expectations as to the magnitude we will do this but no matter how small or big we will give back to someone or to an organization. We all need to do our part no matter how small or big.

This list was not as easy as I thought it would be to come up with. Overall I am happy with it and glad I was able to write it out so I can make sure I am living up to my list.